On Friday I took 2 tests and 1 quiz, right now I'm stressing out in case I have failed them. I'm not so worried about the quiz (because it was for Science) than about the tests. For Geography, I had to guess a few of them because I didn't have the notes on it in my notebook, and for Spanish, let's just say I'm not good in Spanish. That much I'm sure of, but now I feel like if I get a bad grade I'm gonna have it from my dad. I'm afraid I have failed them, if I sucked at them, or if I got a zero! If I get anything less then a "B" it'll strike my chest with a dagger. If I get a "C" then I'll be stabbed in the heart with a sword, if I get a "D" then it'll be like a heart attack! Now if I get an "F" that's going to cause some problems, it'll be like jumping off a cliff, it's like suicide!
I'm stressing out as if my life is hanging on a thin thread, I feel as if I have absolutely no hope anymore, just like Beneatha from The Raisin in the Sun. I feel if I fail these tests, I'll never be able to make it into college or university. I might even become a ghost, my soul might even leave my body, my heart will shrink, and so will my bones. I know that I'm overreacting, and such, but I can't help feeling this way. I've tried to keep my grades steady contently, instead of wiggling like gelatin, but...sometimes its just impossible. Now that I have let out everything I feel much better than when I started, however today is Sunday, and its not my best kind of day. So hopefully I won't totally fail those tests—hopefully it will go well. Now my life is like on a block of golden brick, full of hope, and doubtless.
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